My Healing Journey

I am very grateful to Eileen for the energy healing session that I received yesterday. While I do feel that this is a very private and intimate experience that occurred, I am also excited and eager to share what I can about my experience. I feel that she has helped me greatly and I highly recommend her!

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I have had chronic back pain for many years, I can remember having it since high school. I remember telling my grandma about it and she said, “Oh it’s probably from those flips you did in Cheerleading”. Although I didn’t remember a specific incident in any of the sports that I participated in, I thought she could be right. And as I started to learn about the Mind-Body connection, I grew more curious of where this pain could really be coming from. I knew that it faded in and out at times, and when I was on vacation or relaxing, and easing my stress, the pain was less strong. So I mostly thought it was caused by general “stress“. But I still knew I had to change something about my mind and my energetic vibration.

I have tried many healers and holistic healing methods to deal with this pain. The first time that experienced metaphysical healing was an Akashic Record healing in April of 2015. I told him about my pain and he placed his hand on my right shoulder to facilitate the healing. It was an unbelievably magical experience, as I had never felt anything like it before. It’s hard to put into words but basically it felt like Source energy flowing through my right arm and body. So after that, I definitely felt a significant change in my vibration, but eventually the back pain continued.

During the session yesterday, we talked a bit first about what is going on in my life and where I want to be. I told her that I am excited about my path as an Energy Healer and I can’t wait until I have enough clients and workshops to make a living full time doing this work. Of course, she was very realistic with me and told me that it is a slow process and I shouldn’t quit my job just yet. As a veteran of the Music Industry, she understood my struggle and reassured me “you can bring your reiki with you no matter where you go, or what you are doing.” While the past year after graduating from college has been rough, I realize now that I am discovering and building my own path and career. These are experiences that I need to have, in order to heal myself and understand the healing of others as well.

“In my Intuitive Energy Work sessions, I utilize channeled Intuitive information and energetic healing methods including Integrated Energy Therapy®, Usui and Lightarian Reiki, Intuitive Readings, Metatronia Therapy®, the Akashic RecordsColor TherapyAuric Clearing, and Cord Cutting I work with clients to clear away any lower vibrational elements attached to the energy fields which cause distress, raise the body and soul’s energetic vibration, and help work through and release emotional and physical issues to transform into your most joyous, successful and inspired self.” -Eileen of Intuitive Energy Work

I am not saying that the other healers and healing methods I have tried did not work. They all have helped me along my healing process (which is ever-expanding). There will always be new things to work on and heal within myself. But I am just ecstatic about the connection that I made with this particular healer. The funny part is, I found her by googling “Energy Healer Music Industry”, as I was looking for someone that might be intertwined in those two worlds and understand me as well. At first I felt a little bit shy to open up to someone I had never met over the phone, but within a minute I felt very comfortable as I felt like I was talking to a loving human and friend. Eventually we got to the energy healing and I lied down on my bed with my eyes closed. She explained some of what she was doing as we went along, which was interesting to me and useful for me to know.

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She called in various Angels including Archangel Michael and Archangel Gabriel and she said that Archangel Gabriel will stay with me for a few weeks. She asked, “Do you have back pain in your middle back?” I did not mention anything about this pain, so I knew she could really intuitively feel it. I replied that “Yes it’s usually my upper right shoulder,” but I knew she was still sensing the same thing. She said “What happened when you were 14?” and I burst into tears. I had not cried this freely for as long as I can remember. I think the fact that it was a distance session also helped me to let out these emotions and tears. I didn’t even know what had happened when I was 14… I just was crying. She said “When did you have your first boyfriend?” I told her that that wasn’t until I was a junior in high school so I would have been older than 14. This conversation in the midst of the energy healing really helped me to pinpoint and gain clarity of my own healing process. I thought for a moment along the lines of my first sexual experiences with men and something came to mind. I was at a Slightly Stoopid concert in 2008 with two of my best friends. We had been to high school dance where the common dance was “grinding”. We also liked to talk to random people at concerts. It was a Slightly Stoopid concert so of course there were plenty of people drunk and under the influence of other drugs. I remember dancing with a man (maybe in his early 20s?). I remember seeing my friend kissing the guy she was dancing with. For some reason that wasn’t happening for me. I remember looking back at his face and not really having the desire to kiss him, as I had never kissed a guy before and didn’t know if I would be good at it or how to do it. As I write this, I am remembering what occurred. He was a white guy with short brown buzzed hair. He was tightly grabbing my hips as was common in the method of grinding. I feel like I enjoyed being close to another human but I was also unsure of him. I saw other girls with boyfriends in high school, but me and my friends didn’t really have boyfriends yet. He was putting his hands inside the edges of my shorts. Eventually he got to the inside of my sacred vagina. I think he was drunk, and I may have been a little bit buzzed myself. I am not sure of whether I wanted this to happen or not, but he definitely did not ask for permission or have my consent. Consent was not something I really knew about at the time. I basically thought, “I didn’t say no or tell him to stop, so he must have been in the right.” But thinking back now, at that age, I wasn’t even at the age of consent! As I repeat this story, I think maybe I rationalized the experience afterwards to tell myself it was better than it really was. I am even catching myself rationalizing the experience in a way that doesn’t acknowledge my pain and hides my true feelings as a woman. I told myself that it wasn’t a big deal, he just fingered me.  I know that I had my own issues and I probably chose this to happen to me. And the man was probably not trying to harm me at the time, or maybe part of his soul was missing and he didn’t care if he hurt me. (But I like to believe in the good in people). And these thoughts and beliefs may have been part of my rationalization and hiding my own sadness. Anyway, as the healing occurred, I thought of this incident and kept crying even more. Eileen said that a negative entity had attached to me at that time. She said “yes this was a traumatic experience for you”. I realize that there is much more to the incident than the physical act of a man a barely knew fingering me. It involves my own state of consciousness and being and vulnerability at the time, and how I reacted to the whole situation before, during and afterwards in that period of my life. But until yesterday, it had not hit me that that period of my life and that incident had so much to do with my chronic pain. And now I wonder about this negative entity. Where did it come from? Was it from that man? Or was it from somewhere else in the metaphysical dimensions that latched onto me in that state of vulnerability?  And how was Eileen able to clear that entity away from me so effectively? And today that ghost of that pain that I felt for so long is still healing. But this was the most clearing that I had ever felt. I know that I feel great and this feels like a breakthrough for me.

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I am confident in myself as a Reiki Healer, and my current level of development of my gifts. The clients that come to me are ready for the healing that I can help them with. As I continue to grow and learn as a healer, I would love to be able to help people as deeply and effectively as Eileen helped me!

Love & Light

Victoria

 

 

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At 23…

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I found this quote image on facebook today and I felt relieved. Who knows if all of these statements are true; but either way it made me feel better about my current life status. In addition, I saw an Instagram video from Preston Smiles providing me with a tidbit of inspiration to “stay in my lane.” I love all of his videos and insights because he really does speak from the heart. “The worst mistake you could ever make is comparing your chapter 1 to someone else’s chapter 20,” he says. I always envy his social media posts from remote exotic locations, as well as his beautiful and inspirational partner Alexi Panos. They are great inspirations, but I must remember, they were each born a decade before I was!

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“Tor you don’t have to be Gandhi; Just be you!”

A few years ago I read a biography of Gandhi, and was very inspired to be the change I wished to see in the world, as well as hold the weight of all of the world’s problems on my shoulders. My ex-boyfriend and still very good friend Demetrius told me, “Tor, you don’t have to be Gandhi; just be you.” That was relieving at the time, but I still felt responsibility to make a positive impact while I am here on the Earth. Ever since high school, I remember feeling pain in my upper back and right shoulder. I never knew if it was from the way I was sleeping, or a cheerleading stunt that had injured me, or even just bad computer posture. When I made my first pilgrimage to the Chapel of Sacred Mirrors last winter, another ex (which I have written about previously) found a book in the gift shop called Healing Back Pain by John Sarno. This was my introduction to the notion that physical pain could stem from mental suffering; otherwise known as psychosomatic pain. This was the beginning of my intellectual introduction to psychosomatic pain. As I began receiving more healing sessions from various types of energy healers, I really started to see some positive results. I also began to understand my own consciousness, and how it can affect the collective consciousness here on Earth. With the help of a ReikiSound session by Natalie Bliss, followed by a Divine Light Multidimensional Holographic Remote Quantum Healing (combined with Integrated Energy Therapy) session by Arianna yesterday, I feel great.

I began as a volunteer at Ten Thousand Villages when I was a junior in high school. Ten Thousand Villages is a non-profit organization consisting of a network of retail stores which sell unique hand crafted items made by artisans in developing countries. Everything in the store is also fairly traded, which guarantees that artisans and laborers make a living wage and do not have to endure abuse or violence in their work place. As a Drexel University graduate, I am now a “Sales Associate” at the Center City location of Ten Thousand Villages. This is the same position I held two years ago as a seasonal employee at the very same store. I have had moments of self doubt and feeling sorry for myself for making less than what some of my colleagues that work at desk jobs make. But I absolutely make a living-wage, and I am very grateful for the fact that I have a job! I have also compared myself to one of my co-workers that has worked at the same store for almost ten years and is also a Reiki practitioner, but she still chooses to work at the store. As an aspiring professional Energy Healer, I questioned whether I would be able to “make a living” as a healer. I asked her why she chose not to practice professionally and found out that it seemed to be more of a preference than an impossible feat. In this case, I must remember to “stay in my own lane” and realize that sometimes we have to first figure out what we don’t want in order to figure out what we do want.

The inspiration for our name—Ten Thousand Villages—came from a Mahatma Gandhi quote: “…India is not to be found in its few cities but in the 700,000 villages…we have hardly ever paused to inquire if these folks get sufficient to eat and clothe themselves with.”

I know that my Divine Life Purpose involves energy healing, and most likely Sound Healing as well. But for now, I am happy to contribute to the greater world my heart knows is possible by working as a seasonal employee at Ten Thousand Villages. And things do happen for a reason, even if that’s to lead to another thing that will happen for another reason, and then it will all be ok in the end as it was for JK Rowling, Tina Fey and Oprah.

Ending on a positive note, things are always progressing and there is always room to live my Divine Life Purpose. I recently reached out to an upcoming, local EDM festival called Dreamscape. I explained that I would love to create a healing zone for the festival goers to experience. They replied within two days saying that what I described was very much in line with their vision for the festival. We are still working out the details; but this is a creative opportunity that I am definitely going to take!

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~Quote by the Dalai Lama~