Dear Victoria, Free Your Mind!

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Article 13 – Universal Declaration of Human Rights

I am writing this letter to myself because I want to bring myself back into connection with Source energy and to my good feeling place. I am not writing about my problems so that I can feel bad about them, but so that I can take a step back and gaze down from a larger perspective. And to the readers out there, maybe you have gone through something similar. (Comment below if you feel me!)

“What you’re referring to as your pain, is simply an aspect of you. A version of you, at some point in time and space, that began to run an energetic distortion.” – The Pleiadians as channeled by Nora Herold

I recently saw an email in my work inbox of my part time job at a call center where I make $10.00 per hour. I received my paycheck today and I made $460.00. The email read; Screen Shot 2016-04-01 at 4.56.56 PM

I was ecstatic and emailed the person immediately. It is a part of my nature to want to have excitement, adventure and spontaneity in my life. I thought it would be wonderful to get paid $15 and come out with almost $500 after one week. I received an email today saying that I was accepted to be an actor in the performance and to return the contract and W9. I got overly excited and happy about my bright and exciting future and rushed home to get to my computer. I asked again if she had seen my previous email regarding my work schedule conflicts. She replied; You must make all of the dates or you can not participate. I started crying and feeling similar to when you are little and run to your room and slam the door and start crying into the pillow because your parents tell you that you can’t do something you wanted to do. I felt this angst toward my job in general. Thoughts were racing through my head of quitting and living the life of a freelance worker. But then I realized, I was the one that signed up for this job in the first place. I was the one that sent in my Resume and Cover Letter and accepted the position. I wanted to have a part time job so that I could focus on my other passions outside of the job; Reiki and Yoga. Of course, fears were also running through my head and thoughts of self-doubt. Fear that I will be stuck in this boring job forever, or that I will never make a real positive impact on the world.  Screen Shot 2016-04-01 at 5.08.16 PM

I took a deep breath and realized that I was placing the blame on external factors for making me feel upset or flustered; job, manager, lack of freedom, low pay rate… Yes these things are all things to be considered for the cause of my frustration, but all in all, I have to bring myself back to the good feeling place and back to my center. Sometimes, I also get flustered with decision making and the fact that “anything is possible”. And that I can create the life I desire. But I like to think that it’s a co-creation between myself and the Universe, as well as other co-creators. So I can try to ease up on every minute decision as if it will change the course of my life; ie. The Butterfly Effect.

The scientific theory that a single occurrence, no matter how small, can change the course of the universe forever.- Urban Dictionary

That then lead me to click on the definition of The Chaos Theory.

In physics, it’s a tad more complicated. It states all subatomic and nucleonic particles are all united under ONE force, not gravity, but a very powerful force which holds the very essence of protons, electrons and neutrons together. It branches out into every facet of our existence. Infinite correlation, no probability.- Urban Dictionary

This definition made me feel a bit more comforted, as it mentions “ONE force”, which I can relate to Universal Life Energy, or Source. My goal is to stay in alignment with Source as often as possible, and to become more in touch with my own intuition and to learn to follow my gut instincts. And to learn to say No to what is no longer serving me! It would be more fun to participate in the installation, than sit at my boring job. But it’s also nice to have that peace of mind to know that I can pay my rent, do a few things I love, and still have time to work on building my Reiki and Sound Healing business and clients. I could have stressed and asked my manager to make it work, but I’m already very thankful for the requests to be off that he has fulfilled for me.

In more exciting news, here are two of those events that I was able to gain amnesty for! :

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Free Your Mind Conference

I will be attending the FYM conference on Saturday the 16th. It was an expensive ticket, but this is one of the things that I don’t mind spending money on in order to further my career and life purpose.

 

Intuitive Development- Spring Series

I’m excited for the upcoming Intuitive Development-Spring Series with Alex DiFilippo at The Reiki School. I attended a few of the Chakra Balancing workshops with Alex in the fall, and the intuitive readings gave me great guidance and insight to things I may have never realized and life tools I never would have tried otherwise (notably Kundalini Yoga).

I love to watch YouTube videos from the greats like Ralph Smart and Teal Swan. Sometimes I compare myself to them or other spiritual leaders and wish I was further along the path to my dreams. But I always have to remember the quote from Preston Smiles “Stay in Your Lane”. The one good thing about my call center job is that it’s a step up from my retail job. I can actually drink coffee in between calls and use the world wide web to communicate or do research regarding my Divine Life Purpose or whatever interests me at the moment.

For now, I can let go and trust that, with my own perseverance and the Divine Order of the Universe, things will work out eventually.

Peace & Love

Sincerely,

Victoria

 

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OM (Orgasmic Meditation); Awaken Wellness Fair; & the Gold Kollar Klub

When I went to the Intro to OM (Orgasmic Meditation) course on Saturday, January 16th, one of the major topics was vulnerability.

On Sunday night (January 17th) at Coda, I saw two of my peers from the Music Industry program at Drexel. One asked us “How have you been?” My co-worker Despina replied “working here, and going to Temple”. I replied, “Working here, and doing a lot of reiki”. I said it with a smile and didn’t mention my fears or admit that I have no clue what I’m doing. Well I do have a “clue” but I don’t have it ALL figured out. So I want to work on being vulnerable and revealing my areas where I need help. Who knows, maybe that person may have advice or a connection that may help me, or be able to relate with their own vulnerability.

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Today, Wednesday, January 27th more things are coming together and I accepted a new job as a Patron Services Associate at Ticket Philadelphia! They’re a ticketing company that provides ticketing solutions for many nonprofit and cultural arts organizations throughout our area; including all of the events at The Kimmel Center, The Philadelphia Orchestra and Longwood Gardens.  So, even though Ticket Philadelphia doesn’t work with the type of music I normally listen to or attend live, I am still very excited to be a part of a ticketing agency and heading back in the direction of the entertainment industry. I’m also excited for the upcoming Philadelphia International Festival of the Arts 2016 (PIFA). Although I won’t be involved in planning it, I may have the chance to score some tickets to events for free. And I still work at Coda on the weekends, so that is my outlet for listening to music from the 21st century. Not that I don’t like the music associated with Ticket Philadelphia, but I think it will be nice to have some variety.

And at the end of my interview for Ticket Philadelphia, the training manager asked; “What is reiki?” I went on to give my usual description, “It’s kind of like acupuncture without the needles…”  ((What do you all think about this description of reiki? Comment below for ideas or suggestions)). Anyway, I was glad that I was able to talk about my outside passions and explain why I was looking for a part time job. During the music video shoot with Jsiadi Noon, he told me he was a member of the “Gold Kollar Klub”. I asked what it was and he explained that it’s not blue collar, nor white collar but GOLD. It’s about working to make money to support yourself while also pursuing passions and dreams. It doesn’t have to be just one or the other. Never giving up on dreams! I don’t think I will have a problem with that… PS, I’m doing another photoshoot tonight with yoga as the theme! I’m looking forward to having fun and being active and creative at the same time.

This morning my dad was extremely nice to take me to Walmart before work to help me purchase a camping cot. We ended up getting the Rio Adventures 1 piece Military Cot. I will be using this as a treatment table for reiki sessions this weekend at the Awaken Wellness Fair! Event though I waited until a few days before the event to start making sure I had everything prepared, my dad came to the rescue and encouraged me to finish getting prepared as soon as possible. I now have a cot and I’m going to use it instead of a massage table because it is a lot lighter to transport. Since I will mostly be doing reiki and sound healing in the near future, there is no need for a massage table since I am not trained in massage (yet). And in Japan, not everyone uses massage tables anyway, so a cot might be a unique alternative to a massage table. I will experiment with this and let you know how it goes!