Dear Victoria, Free Your Mind!

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Article 13 – Universal Declaration of Human Rights

I am writing this letter to myself because I want to bring myself back into connection with Source energy and to my good feeling place. I am not writing about my problems so that I can feel bad about them, but so that I can take a step back and gaze down from a larger perspective. And to the readers out there, maybe you have gone through something similar. (Comment below if you feel me!)

“What you’re referring to as your pain, is simply an aspect of you. A version of you, at some point in time and space, that began to run an energetic distortion.” – The Pleiadians as channeled by Nora Herold

I recently saw an email in my work inbox of my part time job at a call center where I make $10.00 per hour. I received my paycheck today and I made $460.00. The email read; Screen Shot 2016-04-01 at 4.56.56 PM

I was ecstatic and emailed the person immediately. It is a part of my nature to want to have excitement, adventure and spontaneity in my life. I thought it would be wonderful to get paid $15 and come out with almost $500 after one week. I received an email today saying that I was accepted to be an actor in the performance and to return the contract and W9. I got overly excited and happy about my bright and exciting future and rushed home to get to my computer. I asked again if she had seen my previous email regarding my work schedule conflicts. She replied; You must make all of the dates or you can not participate. I started crying and feeling similar to when you are little and run to your room and slam the door and start crying into the pillow because your parents tell you that you can’t do something you wanted to do. I felt this angst toward my job in general. Thoughts were racing through my head of quitting and living the life of a freelance worker. But then I realized, I was the one that signed up for this job in the first place. I was the one that sent in my Resume and Cover Letter and accepted the position. I wanted to have a part time job so that I could focus on my other passions outside of the job; Reiki and Yoga. Of course, fears were also running through my head and thoughts of self-doubt. Fear that I will be stuck in this boring job forever, or that I will never make a real positive impact on the world.  Screen Shot 2016-04-01 at 5.08.16 PM

I took a deep breath and realized that I was placing the blame on external factors for making me feel upset or flustered; job, manager, lack of freedom, low pay rate… Yes these things are all things to be considered for the cause of my frustration, but all in all, I have to bring myself back to the good feeling place and back to my center. Sometimes, I also get flustered with decision making and the fact that “anything is possible”. And that I can create the life I desire. But I like to think that it’s a co-creation between myself and the Universe, as well as other co-creators. So I can try to ease up on every minute decision as if it will change the course of my life; ie. The Butterfly Effect.

The scientific theory that a single occurrence, no matter how small, can change the course of the universe forever.- Urban Dictionary

That then lead me to click on the definition of The Chaos Theory.

In physics, it’s a tad more complicated. It states all subatomic and nucleonic particles are all united under ONE force, not gravity, but a very powerful force which holds the very essence of protons, electrons and neutrons together. It branches out into every facet of our existence. Infinite correlation, no probability.- Urban Dictionary

This definition made me feel a bit more comforted, as it mentions “ONE force”, which I can relate to Universal Life Energy, or Source. My goal is to stay in alignment with Source as often as possible, and to become more in touch with my own intuition and to learn to follow my gut instincts. And to learn to say No to what is no longer serving me! It would be more fun to participate in the installation, than sit at my boring job. But it’s also nice to have that peace of mind to know that I can pay my rent, do a few things I love, and still have time to work on building my Reiki and Sound Healing business and clients. I could have stressed and asked my manager to make it work, but I’m already very thankful for the requests to be off that he has fulfilled for me.

In more exciting news, here are two of those events that I was able to gain amnesty for! :

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Free Your Mind Conference

I will be attending the FYM conference on Saturday the 16th. It was an expensive ticket, but this is one of the things that I don’t mind spending money on in order to further my career and life purpose.

 

Intuitive Development- Spring Series

I’m excited for the upcoming Intuitive Development-Spring Series with Alex DiFilippo at The Reiki School. I attended a few of the Chakra Balancing workshops with Alex in the fall, and the intuitive readings gave me great guidance and insight to things I may have never realized and life tools I never would have tried otherwise (notably Kundalini Yoga).

I love to watch YouTube videos from the greats like Ralph Smart and Teal Swan. Sometimes I compare myself to them or other spiritual leaders and wish I was further along the path to my dreams. But I always have to remember the quote from Preston Smiles “Stay in Your Lane”. The one good thing about my call center job is that it’s a step up from my retail job. I can actually drink coffee in between calls and use the world wide web to communicate or do research regarding my Divine Life Purpose or whatever interests me at the moment.

For now, I can let go and trust that, with my own perseverance and the Divine Order of the Universe, things will work out eventually.

Peace & Love

Sincerely,

Victoria

 

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Distance Healing

From now on, this blog will have a lot to do with healing, since that is my main joy in life.

I received my first distance healing session today at 3pm. I met a man on OkCupid and we have been messaging back and forth for a few weeks. He is Reiki Master, and he is also a musician. In addition to that, he is a beautiful man with muscles and dreadlocks! ^.^ Those are always pluses for me.

The healing session was wonderful. Leading up to it, I imagined that he might call me on the phone or video chat in order to commence the healing. But when it was about time to start, he just sent me a message that said; find a comfortable place to lay down and I will start in about 4 minutes.

Since I have had the 4 Reiki Level 1 attunements, I was easily able to recognize the feeling, or the energy he was sending me. But of course, as a human with a naturally analytical, active mind; I still had thoughts about what I should be doing or how I could best optimize my session.

In one of my hypnosis sessions that I have downloaded on my phone, Kym Tolson said “whether or not you remember what I’m saying, it will still affect your unconscious”. So whenever I’m thinking too much, I just fall back on that and realize that thinking can be futile sometimes. Of course we need to think in order to survive, but I am practicing learning when I need to think versus when my thinking is just feeding the illusion of control.

The most magical thing happened after most of the strong tingling and wave-feelings went away, and I went into more of a visualization meditation state. I felt that I was in the clouds and I saw my healer in angel form. He had giant wings, which were in resting position, but they were still very much there and obvious. His hair was mostly tied back, and he was wearing all white. His wings were bright white with intricate feathers. It was a very positive experience!

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About 20 minutes after he had finished the session, and I had finished my meditation, I looked at my phone to see that he sent me a message. He gave me a call to talk about the session. I described the good effects of Reiki and the feelings I felt from his session. I have had a Reiki session before, so there were some similar aspects but I suppose everyone has their own style. Then, I told him about my experience after the session ended. I wasn’t sure if he was going to say “Ohh… that’s cool I guess….” or think I was a bit crazy. But his true response was “So you have seen my wings… I usually try to keep them hidden.” In that moment I ALMOST teared up a bit. I wasn’t crazy and I felt like I had met an angel.

Today has been wonderful. Angels are real!

Peace & Love

LOVE,

Victoria

Healing Myself after a Breakup

Hello,

I just wanted to mention something about the breakup that I am processing. I know that it was my doing. I told my significant other that I wanted to be single because I knew it would be better for me in my current life situation.

I decided to consult the MsgAngels app about a “Situation or Concern”

When it came to the Hidden Influences card, I drew the angel Sonya:

“I bring you a message from your deceased loved one: ‘I am happy, at peace, and I love you very much. Please don’t worry about me.”

My grandfather Kushnerick has been coming into my thoughts a lot lately, as he was one of my main academic influences as a child. He was the person that taught me how to read and write, I remember it distinctly, using a yellow notepad and pens. I’m sure that other people helped, but he must’ve had a great influence on me since I remember it so well. I’ve been thinking about him and what he would think of me today in the world; would he approve of me? would he be proud of me as I’m about to graduate college?

The Sonya card goes on:

“Your heart has been heavy with grief, and I am here to reassure you. I am a guardian angel to your deceased loved one, and I want you to know that there is no reason for you to worry. Your loved one is very happy and has adjusted to the transition very well. There is no anger or upset directed toward you, only love and understanding. You have done nothing wrong, dear one, so please don’t blame yourself in any way. You did everything that you could, and your loved one has asked me to share this appreciation with you”

At this point I began to realize that the card was answering what I initially asked about  when it comes to my current situation or concern. Maybe my grandfather still factors into the situation somehow, but who knows. Over the past week I’ve been thinking and/or worrying daily about my “ex-lover”. I wondered if I made the right choice, doubted myself, felt alone, worried whether he would be ok or not and hoped that he would be handling the situation positively and healing. Even though the card was talking about a deceased loved one, I also accepted that the advice might be helping me process my breakup situation. Telling me that my ex-lover is not angry at me.

“You and your loved one still share great love between your souls. That love could never die! Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams; as well as through feeling, hearing, smelling or seeing your loved one’s essence. Your loved one is as alive as you are- even more alive in many ways. Relieved of Earthly cares or bodily pains, your loved one is freer and happier than ever. As soon as you complete your life’s purpose and it is your time to make the transition, you will be reunited in each other’s arms. In the meantime, please know that your loved one is with you often, and that the angels surround you continuously.”

Although my ex-lover is not dead, his physical presence has disappeared from my life and I have missed it over the past week. This last paragraph has helped me understand and reassure my feelings about the love that we once shared. It was very strong, and I still have that love stored somewhere deep in my heart. “That love could never die!” I still question that statement because if we broke up, then how is that statement true…. but honestly it is the way that I like to deal with my breakups. A compassionate way, knowing that once I’ve loved someone, I will always love them in a special way even if we aren’t “dating” in the current physical world. So far I can say that I feel like I’ve truly loved two of the people I have dated. For the others I have dated, I still wished them luck and happiness when we parted. The other reason I felt that the card resonated with me was because it mentioned “Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams.” I had a vivid dream that involved my ex-lover last night. I won’t give all of the details, but I had not remembered many dreams that included him in the past. Although the dream wasn’t all peace and love, it also wasn’t a night mare, so that’s a good sign that we’re somewhere in the middle and hopefully we are both healing.

The app was created by Doreen Virtue. I am not religious, (although I was raised as a Christian). I know it’s important not to be extremely gullible or naive and to not believe everything I hear. But I also believe that if something helps me feel better (in a non-intrusive way) then it’s ok for me to put some good faith into it. Even if it’s sort of like a placebo effect.

Here is Doreen’s website: http://www.angeltherapy.com