Divine Masculine & Divine Feminine

I will admit that I’m no expert on the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. But what I do know is that every one of us has our own divine feminine and divine masculine energies within. Lately I have been carrying around my black tourmaline and my small selenite stick, sometimes one in each hand, sometimes resting them on top of each other. selenite-and-black-tourmaline

I also recently discovered the Non-Traditional Reiki Symbol Ran Sei while reading the book Claiming Your Inner Gifts by Marnie Vincolisi. I am still gaining familiarity with this symbol, but one of the things that the symbol can be used for is balancing masculine and feminine energies within. I experimented by giving myself a session with the symbol and the intention of balancing my own masculine and feminine energies and felt it to be a good tool. It looks similar to the symbol “Long Say”, but it’s a bit different. Other than that, I have also been loving the energy of Dai Ko Myo. I am very excited to take the Reiki Master Instructor class so that I can learn how to pass attunements.

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I also attended a Yinyasa yoga class last night at Amrita Yoga & Wellness in Fishtown, Philadelphia. I felt amazing after the class, and I would love to attend more Yin style yoga classes in the future. Last week, my Qigong teacher was mentioning how he thinks Yin yoga is becoming so popular because we really need a break from the fast moving life style of our current society. He also said that he knows the originator of Yin Yoga! I thought that was pretty cool. Even though Reiki is an abundant, infinite source, I am interested in building up my own personal “Chi”. I think this will help me to become a stronger and more energetic person, as well as helping more people during reiki sessions.

In other exciting news, two new people came into my life and I really like both of them (a man and a woman). I love hanging out with them, but I also like to have my alone time. I was worried that they would think I was a unicorn or even a “hot bi babe”. I do understand that they started dating before I came into the mix and want to respect their relationship to each other. But so far, things have been working out naturally. The lady and I even got to go to dinner at the restaurant where the man works, and had him as our server of a delicious feast. Life felt pretty magical in that moment. Or as the beautiful lady would say, “The Universe loves us!” (Then I escaped to have some alone time at the Yinyasa yoga class).

And for the last bit of exciting news, here is my music video debut! I also feel that the Panda aesthetic of the music video goes along with the theme of this whole post.

Healing Myself after a Breakup


I just wanted to mention something about the breakup that I am processing. I know that it was my doing. I told my significant other that I wanted to be single because I knew it would be better for me in my current life situation.

I decided to consult the MsgAngels app about a “Situation or Concern”

When it came to the Hidden Influences card, I drew the angel Sonya:

“I bring you a message from your deceased loved one: ‘I am happy, at peace, and I love you very much. Please don’t worry about me.”

My grandfather Kushnerick has been coming into my thoughts a lot lately, as he was one of my main academic influences as a child. He was the person that taught me how to read and write, I remember it distinctly, using a yellow notepad and pens. I’m sure that other people helped, but he must’ve had a great influence on me since I remember it so well. I’ve been thinking about him and what he would think of me today in the world; would he approve of me? would he be proud of me as I’m about to graduate college?

The Sonya card goes on:

“Your heart has been heavy with grief, and I am here to reassure you. I am a guardian angel to your deceased loved one, and I want you to know that there is no reason for you to worry. Your loved one is very happy and has adjusted to the transition very well. There is no anger or upset directed toward you, only love and understanding. You have done nothing wrong, dear one, so please don’t blame yourself in any way. You did everything that you could, and your loved one has asked me to share this appreciation with you”

At this point I began to realize that the card was answering what I initially asked about  when it comes to my current situation or concern. Maybe my grandfather still factors into the situation somehow, but who knows. Over the past week I’ve been thinking and/or worrying daily about my “ex-lover”. I wondered if I made the right choice, doubted myself, felt alone, worried whether he would be ok or not and hoped that he would be handling the situation positively and healing. Even though the card was talking about a deceased loved one, I also accepted that the advice might be helping me process my breakup situation. Telling me that my ex-lover is not angry at me.

“You and your loved one still share great love between your souls. That love could never die! Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams; as well as through feeling, hearing, smelling or seeing your loved one’s essence. Your loved one is as alive as you are- even more alive in many ways. Relieved of Earthly cares or bodily pains, your loved one is freer and happier than ever. As soon as you complete your life’s purpose and it is your time to make the transition, you will be reunited in each other’s arms. In the meantime, please know that your loved one is with you often, and that the angels surround you continuously.”

Although my ex-lover is not dead, his physical presence has disappeared from my life and I have missed it over the past week. This last paragraph has helped me understand and reassure my feelings about the love that we once shared. It was very strong, and I still have that love stored somewhere deep in my heart. “That love could never die!” I still question that statement because if we broke up, then how is that statement true…. but honestly it is the way that I like to deal with my breakups. A compassionate way, knowing that once I’ve loved someone, I will always love them in a special way even if we aren’t “dating” in the current physical world. So far I can say that I feel like I’ve truly loved two of the people I have dated. For the others I have dated, I still wished them luck and happiness when we parted. The other reason I felt that the card resonated with me was because it mentioned “Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams.” I had a vivid dream that involved my ex-lover last night. I won’t give all of the details, but I had not remembered many dreams that included him in the past. Although the dream wasn’t all peace and love, it also wasn’t a night mare, so that’s a good sign that we’re somewhere in the middle and hopefully we are both healing.

The app was created by Doreen Virtue. I am not religious, (although I was raised as a Christian). I know it’s important not to be extremely gullible or naive and to not believe everything I hear. But I also believe that if something helps me feel better (in a non-intrusive way) then it’s ok for me to put some good faith into it. Even if it’s sort of like a placebo effect.

Here is Doreen’s website: http://www.angeltherapy.com