What’s so mystical about the Statue of Liberty? How Reiki leads to greater visionary abilities.

I was participating as a vendor of Reiki and Sound healing at the recent Spiritual Awakening Expo in Bordentown, NJ.

I was running a bit late and felt a bit flustered as I was checking in and setting up for the day. But also filled with excitement about what the day would bring, and what types of spiritual people I would meet.

So, recently during my sessions, I am beginning to see images more and more. Some people may call this Clairvoyance.

At the expo, I am about to give a Reiki session to a woman that seems to be around my age. She is beautiful and has brown hair cut to around her neck. She has never had reiki before, but she has been told that it’s something she needs to learn.

So during the session, I will usually close my eyes. And sometimes I will focus my attention on my third eye region. This brings me into a meditative state and allows me to use my intuition to sense what is going on within the client, whether it be mind, body, spirit or a combination (since everything is connected anyway!).

 

So, I will be honest, I am a work in progress, (aren’t we all?), and in my current state, there are still times where I will have the fear of saying something totally out of the ballpark. For example, “I’m seeing an orange cat, do you have any cats?”, and the client replies, “No… I’m not sure”. I also sometimes have the fear or worry, with some pieces of information, that it’s just something I made up in my imagination, (image-machine) or mind. So being able to more clearly determine which messages or pieces of information are coming from my intuition (a true Divine message), or are something from my own consciousness, is something I would like to work on.

But honestly, it’s all ok! Usually, when I say something that I saw, for example, “I was seeing giraffes”. The client may just say ok, hm… It could symbolize something or it could just be something that doesn’t mean much to them.

On the other hand, there are times, where the image or vision is so strong, that I know it is not coming from me. With the client on Saturday at the Expo, I placed my hands on to the top of her head, allowing the gentle Reiki energy to flow through. And a few minutes into the session, I began seeing the image of the Statue of Liberty in my mind’s eye. I thought wow, where did that come from? It’s not like I had been thinking of the Statue of Liberty or visited it recently. This is one of those moments where I had the initial fear, “Should I say something? What if it means nothing and disrupts the flow of the session?”. But as I mentioned, the image was so strong that I just took a shot and told her what I saw at that moment. She laughed… paused…

And replied, “A mystic recently told me that I need to visit the Statue of Liberty.”

AHH!

An amazing message from Spirit, being delivered through the Quantum Field through me. So, I just verified what the other mystic said. But it felt pretty cool! I went on to continue the session, bringing and allowing her to bring more Light into her body and energy field through Reiki. After the session, I asked her how she felt, and she replied that she felt very good and relaxed. She went on to say that the mystic told her that the Statue of Liberty was made of a certain metal that would be beneficial to be around. Interesting! If anyone reading this knows any other mystical secrets about the Statue of Liberty, comment below!

I am so grateful for these mystical experiences. I want to continue growing so that I can become even stronger in my visionary abilities. And to be an open channel for the highest healing energy, surrendering and trusting so that this can flow through me.

What are three ways we can strengthen the third eye?

1. Nourish the pineal gland

Sugar, Caffeine, Alcohol and Tobacco (S.C.A.T.): A diet free of these will not only flush the system, but it will also bring about your inner energy or “Chi” and allow you to have a more balanced mind/body. The longer you avoid these the better, but it must be for at least two months to help the pineal gland. –The Art of Unity.com

Again, I will admit, I’m not perfect and so I still have sugar and caffeine (occasionally) in my diet. But this is a reminder for me to start now! By eliminating as much sugar and caffeine as possible. I say this because I know I do feel better when I live this lifestyle. I love cacao as a morning drink, which is a great alternative to coffee. Also, I love fruit! So I don’t think that healthy amounts of fruit are bad for the pineal gland. I think he is referring to cane sugar. As for alcohol, I have found in my current lifestyle, it is best for me to avoid. And as for Tobacco, I do believe it can be used as a sacred tool/ ritual, such as rapé, which in my experience actually made me feel more clear. But I’m not sure I would want to do it every day. This is just my preference, but see what works for you!

2. Meditate

Meditation is the world’s most potent and effective third eye opening, awakening, and decalcification tool. –EOCInstitute.org

In the quote above, I’m not sure how meditation directly decalcifies the pineal gland, but I know that it does assist with “third eye opening” and awakening. There is so much research coming out these days on how meditation affects the brain. All of the effects are positive! One of the recent facts that I learned while listening to the Meditation Masterclass from Mindvalley with Vishen Lakhiani and Emily Fletcher was that meditation strengthens the corpus callosum (a broad band of nerve fibers joining the two hemispheres of the brain), therefore strengthening and balancing the two hemispheres of the brain.

Screen Shot 2018-04-13 at 10.30.01 AM
Corpus Callosum is strengthened by meditation

 

3. Learn Reiki! and Practice

New Reiki & Sound Photos

Thanks, Alejandra of Copper Fox Photography for these beautiful photos! I had an amazing time shooting with her around my hometown “Everybody’s Home Town” of Media, PA. It was a bit chilly on this April day, but it felt good to brave the cold in order to accomplish what we set out to, a successful photo shoot!

Grandma Loves Reiki!

This morning I gave my Grandma a Reiki session. It was beautiful!

29595113_878073075650899_5296623159770270754_n
Did you know that your grandmother carried part of you inside her womb? 
But how? 
Well, a female fetus is born with all the eggs she will ever have in her lifetime. So when your Grandmother was carrying your Mother in her womb, you were a tiny egg in your Mother’s ovaries. The three of you have been connected for a very long time. Women are amazing!- Photo from Australian Breastfeeding Project

I saw this image on Facebook a few days ago, and it really inspired me to connect and send love and healing energy to my Grandma. I didn’t really realize or think about the fact that I (my body at least) was an egg inside of my Mother’s ovaries when she was in my Grandmother’s womb! My grandma is going through a difficult time, which affects my Mom, which then affects me. I would love to go into detail, but I still have a fear “what if someone from my family reads it”, or “what if it’s offensive to write details about my family”. Well, I suppose I will write what I feel most comfortable with from a place of honesty, truth, integrity, and love. Basically, she was in the hospital and is now in the assisted living home. I am wondering if she is nearing death since she is 90 years old. She may live 10 more years, I do not know as of right now, but I wish death (soul leaving the body) was something we could talk about in a more open light. Regardless, I want to help her and support her as much as I possibly can.

Today I feel that the session I gave her was really special. Recently I’ve been using a lot of guided visualization to assist in my sessions. I always ask people to imagine connecting to the light 300 feet above their head. This time, I asked her to imagine my Grandpa (her husband), and imagine him in a state of health and happiness. I asked her to envision him and to say Thank you, I’m Sorry, Please Forgive Me, I Love you, and to see him saying it back to her. This is along the lines of Ho’oponopono, the Hawaiian prayer for forgiveness. Here is a great YouTube video if you would like to try it for yourself! 7 Minute Ho’oponopono. Anyway, I could tell that my grandma felt relief when this process occurred between her and my Grandpa in Spirit. Next, I used this technique with my Grandma, which I’ve been using a lot recently with Reiki clients. This technique feels like Psychoalchemy to me.

The steps are:

  • Think of an issue you would like to have healed.
  • If this issue could be located somewhere in or around your body, where would it be located?
  • Imagine if the issue could have a shape or image depicting it, what would it look like?
  • Then, ask the shape if it has any messages for you?
  • Finally, send lots of love and healing energy to the shape and allow it to be let go of.

This is a great process to use to facilitate Mind-Body healing, and you can use it too! Experiment with a friend, or try it solo. I’ve been using it a lot because it worked for me.

I used it with my Grandma and felt it was a great success. I love Reiki because it is a form of Alternative healing that can complement all other medicines. The other thing I love about it is that I often feel good while giving it. Thank you, Reiki for being such an amazing joy in my life!

Kambo Healing Experience

My first Kambo session was amazing. The session I did was located at 8th Chakra Yoga Studio in Santa Ana, California. The ceremony was hosted by KamboHealingMe, and the practitioners Scott and Alex were brilliant at what they did. I felt so loved and cared for. I received all of the help and guidance that I felt like I needed. So you might be wondering, why did Victoria sign up to try a medicine that comes from the back of a frog in the Amazon. One of the answers is that I have always loved frogs and they were one of my favorite animals as a child, So I felt very called to try this medicine. I also love the idea of holistic healing through sacred medicines, and I believe in the tremendous power that they hold.

My intentions for healing which I stated in the ceremony were:

-Speak my truth and be myself.

-Teach Reiki.

-Heal my relationship with money and become debt free.

-Heal my sty.

So here is what the experience felt like. The kambo burns did not really hurt that much. Just a little prick feeling. Then they put the kambo, which is in a liquid form on there to be absorbed into the body. The practitioner said “Find your meditation, Align your chakras, Send love and gratitude to the medicine. Focus on your intention. Think about how it affects the lives of others.” So I did. I really connected to thinking about my Dad. And praying for healing for him. But I know that I can only heal myself, and maybe it can affect him through symbiosis. And being brave. I felt the warmth and heat come all over my body. I felt like I was being lifted. I felt the heat in my ear canals and around my ears. I had the thought “I give my life to God & And I surrender” But I was still having a hard time purging. It’s almost like I thought I would disturb others by doing so, even though everyone else had done it. I felt like I wanted to escape and go to the bathroom to poop it out. I asked one of the facilitators “Am I supposed to throw up?” He said, “95% of people do, Otherwise you poop it out.” One of the facilitators came over to me and said: “Let it out.” He said, “you can make yourself throw up if you need to.” He motioned his hands to his mouth in the way that you would make yourself gag. As I saw him do this I could feel the purge coming and ready to be released. The throw up came out! It was amazing and beautiful. Then I received Sananga. Scott said “It helps to heal any eye issues, Vision, Cataracs, And even a sty. The eyes are the window to your soul. ” So I laid on my back and they put it in my eyes. I squirmed a lot. This part felt a bit even more intense. I scrunched up but Alex and Scott came over and both helped me. I realized when I went out of my mind and stopped thinking so much I could surrender to this medicine. I saw and felt the color purple. My body was also shaking a lot. Especially my legs. But when I stopped resisting I stopped shaking. And eventually, within a few minutes, the intensity passed and I felt the healing and integration and calmness.

After we all came back from being in the medicine, Scott said “You basically just had surgery, so be gentle and notice what you consume; What you watch, listen to and thoughts you have. Challenge yourself to no caffeine, no sugar, no alcohol, no spicy food, no sex, and no drugs for at least 3 days.

The day after my first kambo session I did feel a bit tired and drained. I tried to replenish myself with healthy food and water. Then the day after that I felt extremely energized and healthy. I could feel myself craving only healthy foods and not craving other foods I used to eat like sugar or caffeine. I felt so energized upon waking up that I didn’t need caffeine. This burst of pure energy lasted for a week or so. But I still feel the healing benefits and true change from the experience. They recommend to do 3 sessions within one moon cycle, but I was only able to do one. I hope to do more within the next year. As for my intentions, I feel like it definitely helped to clear out my system so that I could be more in touch with my own intuition and manifesting skills. It works more on the physical level and is less psychoactive, although it was still a very spiritual experience for me. I could definitely feel that it helped to heal my stye. And it definitely empowered me with Reiki, as I went on to give Holy Fire Reiki to someone that was in the ceremony with me, directly afterward!

Thank you, Kambo Spirit. I love you! I highly recommend Kambo to anyone who wishes to purify their energy and body, mind and soul. Check out the KamboHealingMe website here!  If you have any comments, insights or questions, I would love to hear your comments below!

You Can Create Your Own Symbols!

For the longest time, many clients would ask me for feedback after the session. I would often say something very vague like “I felt a lot of energy in your chest”. Or even just “I’m not sure”. But recently I have been trusting my intuition and inner voice a lot more, as well as becoming more confident in the ability of reiki to channel and flow through me during a session. I have also been holding and working with my aqua aura crystal to aid in communication.

 

il_340x270-1058119611_tbqj
Aqua Aura 

 

I would often hear more experienced healers talk about receiving messages or symbols. A teacher that I highly respect and admire is Danielle Stimpson of Learn Reiki Philadelphia. I most recently took her class Shamanic Reiki, where we learned some ways of using gentle, non-invasive Shamanic techniques that she received from her Guides, as well as created on her own based on her many years of training and experience. One of the other topics we touched on in the class was Symbols. We learned a few new symbols to practice on ourselves and others. For example, one of the symbols we talked about was from Seichim, and another was from the Magick of Reiki by Christopher Penczak. I know that the Reiki symbols are sacred and powerful, and I treat them with respect. And I knew that there were many other powerful magical symbols out there as well. One of the things that Danielle said that really made me feel empowered was “You can create your own symbols”. For a while, I didn’t really feel like any symbol of importance was there for me to draw. But still having this knowledge and empowerment in the back of my mind was beneficial.

So, during my most recent session for a female CEO, I was tuning into any thoughts or images that popped into my mind’s eye in the process. When I got to her left hip, I saw a clear symbol that I had never seen before.

Screen Shot 2017-03-10 at 11.10.02 PM
Feminine Empowerment

This is, pretty much, what the symbol looked like. When I brought this up at the end of the session, it turned out to relevant to what the client was going through in her life. I described the symbol and she said “Hm, kind of like ovaries?” and I said “yes!” I said that it seemed to represent feminine/ female power. Working in a male-dominated field, she said she could use a dose of this in her life, as I’m sure many women could, in the few months since the recent election. This symbol appearing to me served as a gateway to having a meaningful healing conversation with my client after the session. I later realized that this also happened on International Women’s Day, which made the symbol feel very serendipitous and synchronistic. I can’t guarantee that new symbols will pop up every time I give a reiki session, but this turned out to be pretty magnificent, and I would love for it to happen again in the future!

Love & Light,

Victoria

Reiki and Sound in Philadelphia

classes

I am so excited to announce that I have a new space to call my own for a full day every week! Of course, it is my amazing teacher and friend Danielle Stimpson of Learn Reiki Philadelphia‘s space- but it’s “mine” for the day! Meaning I don’t have to worry that there won’t be space available if a client wishes to book. So friends, family, musicians, and anyone that wants some peace, relaxation and clarity- come on up to the studio!

 

The Simplicity of Reiki

prema-birthing.jpg

As a lover of all things having to do with metaphysical healing, I sometimes get caught up in thinking I need to know more or learn more and gain a new certification. Well of course, I love learning and I will continue to pursue new modalities as they come along. Or maybe I get caught up worrying about whether the healing I channel will be strong or significant enough for the receiver. I enjoy receiving unique, esoteric, sometimes intense and powerful types of healing sessions such as Marconics, the amazing Prema Birthing Healing that I received last week, Akashic healings and many more!

premaagni
Prema Agni

But yesterday morning I went to The Heart Casa in Ocean City, New Jersey for a Reiki and Crystal Bath session with my Mom. This was a birthday present for my mom. Even though she is not as much into this stuff as I am, she enjoyed it and felt very relaxed. The owner explained, reiki is a healing method from Japan. She did use crystals along with the reiki, as there are many beautiful and rare crystals in their shop. It was nice to receive a simple reiki healing and feel the subtle energy flow. One of the definitions of simple is “having few parts”. So it was nice to feel and experience the simple yet effective touch of reiki. And to remember that even though I am aware of and fascinated by many new techniques, reiki is my foundation.

After we got back from the session, I went to the beach and enjoyed the “Psychic Force Field” and healing properties of the ocean. On the beach, I was able to give a reiki session to a very close family friend. I had been wanting to give her a session for quite some time. She asked “Tori can you give me reiki on my neck?” And I said yes of course. Even though we were close to some other groups on the beach that were talking, I used the simple touch and focus of reiki. I started at the crown chakra and eventually got to her neck. She said it felt wonderful and after the session, she said she could feel the pain leaving her neck and going out the top of her head! It always feels nice when someone tells me things like this, as it reassures me that I am helping them in a great way.

As my teacher Danielle Stimpson always says, anyone can perform reiki. Whether you have been attuned or not, you can provide a loving intention and a light touch to a friend or family member. Of course the attunements help to refine and strengthen the energy flow. But, what do we do when we get a cut or stub our toe? We put our hands on it! It is the natural reaction.

I have struggled with the fact that some people don’t “believe” in reiki or that sometimes I just don’t feel like putting effort into explaining it to someone. But I spoke with another family friend (she is like my 2nd mom) about this. She said, any touch you give someone will help them feel better. She and her daughter gave touch to me, and it did help me relax. So this really opened up a new way of thinking about reiki. And even to simplify my own practice; “I am providing light touch to aid in relaxation and to help someone feel better”.

On Saturday I completed a 50 hour Thai Massage Level 1 and 2 Certification. It was challenging to learn this new healing art that’s very rooted in the physical, but also recognizes the subtle energy or “sen lines”. It is very complex with many different techniques and stretches to remember. I have always been interested in massage, so it was great to learn a style of massage that acknowledges the subtle energy of the body along with the importance intention behind the healing session. 13775350_567183326795143_151891903643703368_n

Na-a Na-wa Rokha Payati Vina Santi ; We pray for the one whom we touch, that illness will be released and happiness will follow.

We practiced every day for 7 days, with a short break on Wednesday afternoon. So it was a lot of physical exercise. I will continue to learn and practice Thai massage, but it was nice to go back to the simplicity of reiki where I can let my mind wander. While giving thai massage, I still have to think about what move comes next so it takes away from the flow. But one day, with practice, it can become a moving meditation.

While giving a reiki session, it is nice to focus on a symbol, but not to worry if my mind wanders to something different. And the movements just come by habit and intuition now.

On the last day of class, we gave our teacher a 5 minute session to show her our “touch” that we cultivated over the week. I Palm Pressed her legs and Thumb pressed the six points of her feet. Afterwards she said, “Woah, you have a lot of etheric energy! But it doesn’t feel as if you are coming from your hara. This work will help you.” I said thank you very much for the advice. In my head, at first, I felt a bit defensive of course, as I thought, well, I love my etheric energy and I am a reiki person… Does this mean I shouldn’t do reiki? But after letting that piece of advice and constructive criticism sit a bit, I realized that I can only become stronger as a healer. I watched two videos by Dr. Steven Weiss to gain some insight.

Rather than hoping they feel my energy and blasting them with my energy, it can become a conversation where I listen maybe even more than I speak. And hold the space for them to process their own healing. It’s not detached, but it’s not controlling either. I will continue to contemplate this piece of advice and integrate everything I have learned so far. But for right now, I am glad and proud of myself for how far I have come. Thank you for listening, I love you!

-Victoria

 

 

Reiki Life Update!

I am certified to teach Reiki and I received my certification on May 1st so I guess it really hasn’t been that long! Sometime I get frustrated with my self for taking so long to announce my first class. But after all, I still haven’t finished writing my Level 1 Manual yet. And I may need a bit more practice giving attunements. I did give a Level 2 re-attunement to my roommate Jess two weeks ago and she was very patient during the process as I read off of my cheat sheet to remember the order of movements and symbols.

On the other hand, I am becoming so much more comfortable with reiki and energy healing sessions, in-person as well as distance sessions. As I’m getting ready to leave for Ocean City, New Jersey this evening, I can’t believe it was only one year ago that I experienced my first distance reiki healing session. And more than a year since I began my first reiki class. Tomorrow I will be starting a Thai Massage Class (Levels 1 and 2) in OCNJ! I couldn’t be more excited and I can feel my abundant future and holistic healing career blooming.

I still love reiki and I know that it is a great healing tool. But right now, I am becoming more interested in deeper healing work that encourages the release of emotions. For example, the way that I cried during my energy healing session with Eileen Mercolino and during the Breathwork workshop. I feel that many people, myself included, do not allow themselves to express emotions.

“Everyone on earth, regardless of how good his or her childhood may have been, has experienced trauma to some degree; therefore, everyone experiences post-traumatic stress to some degree. The people who know for sure that they have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) are the ones experiencing post-traumatic stress to such a degree that it interferes with their ability to function, thus they have been given an actual diagnosis.  Many people, who are simply struggling to try to feel good in their lives, cannot look back at their lives and pinpoint an exact event that caused their current pain.  It is hard for the average person to see that the root of the pain in their adult life is in fact past trauma.  The Completion Process however, allows you to see the root of your current pain and to resolve it.”   –Teal Swan  

For me, many times it is just a matter of worrying what other people will think of me if they hear or see me crying in public. Babies do it all of the time! But of course we are trained as young ones to stop crying, especially when it may bother others in public. But maybe this is not the worst thing. At least there are ways to create space for allowing people to cry. That is what I really would love to do. Of course this may occur in a reiki class or an IET class after an attunement as well.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

high-vibration-foods

Last week while I was attending the Lion Heart Life Healing community wellness event in West Philly, I saw a flyer for a free 30 Day Vegan Pledge program. It was synchronistic because I had been thinking about going vegan and talking about it with my magical roommate Jess. We had a beautiful vegan feast this morning and I have an awesome mentor named Crystal that also loves Bikram yoga!

Reasons why I am Vegan:

  1. Cowspiracy (Environmental Reasons)
  2. Peace for the Animals
  3. Health for myself

 

As a Reiki Master, I understand that everything is energy, especially the food we put into our bodies! An animal that was kept in a box and killed to be used for their meat and eaten will not have a positive vibration. Therefore, it won’t give me a positive vibration upon eating it!

I am now on Day 8 of the 30 Day Vegan Pledge and I feel amazing. I am excited to hit the 6 month mark because according to Fully Raw Kristina, that is when our cells regenerate and we will no longer crave foods we once craved. More vegan updates coming your way soon!

Love & Light

Victoria

 

 

 

 

Spotlight on my Acupuncturist!

I love my Acupuncturist, Daniel Nemer. Check out his website here: Translating Health . It was over a year ago when I first saw him at his spacious clinic in the Hidden River studio in Manayunk. I love the one on one sessions because I am able to express the happenings in my life, and my emotions. Daniel really understands that everything that is happening in my life is relevant information to know for the treatment. This is not to say that I will talk for 30 minutes… but I feel comfortable sharing my feelings.

Recently I went to see him for an Acugraph screening. I didn’t know exactly what I was getting into, but I was interested in seeing what this new technology could show me about my own body and meridians. He explained that the tool would be basically running an electric current through me, but I wouldn’t feel anything. He gave me a metal bar to hold on to for grounding. We casually chatted as he tested the various acupuncture points on my body with the tool. After the test, the results showed up on his computer. The results looked something like this:

stacks-image-d9df2b5

I have always loved receiving acupuncture, but this Acugraph system really gives me a clearer perspective of my own body and my health progress towards balance. After my first Acugraph appointment, I had to make another appointment to come back for acupuncture, just because I didn’t schedule it ahead of time. But when I came back, I loved having the whole room to myself to drift off into my acupuncture nap.

I highly recommend Daniel to anyone that is looking for a great acupuncturist in the Philadelphia area!

 

Experiencing Breathwork

This morning I attended a workshop at the lovely Healing Arts Collective, a place near and dear to my heart as it’s a place where deep healing occurs for me as well as the clients I work on. I am so grateful for the owners, Adrian and Debora, as well as my fellow practitioners and teachers there.

I am also grateful for Jeff Carreira for inviting me to the workshop and giving an introduction to the workshop. He opened the workshop with a brief silent meditation, which is what he is known for teaching. He explained his philosophy and method towards meditation; there is no method. Just let go, and whatever happens is what is happening. He also mentioned the idea of natural growth. He gave an example, babies turn into toddlers which turn into kids… and so on. Without self-help books or worrying whether their cells will develop correctly. (I still love self-help books). It’s just the natural growth that’s integral to life on this planet. It happens without trying. He also gave the example of a tree. A tree doesn’t have to try. It just grows and heals naturally. If it’s limb gets broken off in the storm, it keeps growing and healing. Unfortunately as humans, we don’t have the capacity to grow back our limbs (yet). But we do have the capacity to heal our emotional wounds and move past them. As Jeff gave this introduction, I was really excited for the possibilities of what might occur for me energetically during the class. He finished by saying that, natural growth will happen for all of us and it helps to remove and blockages that may be blocking or resisting that growth. And as I gave my personal introduction to the class as we all went around and introduced ourselves, I said, “I consider myself a generator, so I’m interested in the idea of natural growth and letting go.” I can still be a generator, as it’s part of my Human Design chart, but I can learn to use that to my advantage. So I am now focusing more on the idea of allowing the growth that feels right, and not pushing myself or being impatient with myself.

Screen Shot 2016-06-26 at 3.35.15 PM

Going into the class, I figured it might be similar to the breathwork I’ve done previously in yoga classes. I didn’t have a high expectation, which is a good way to be! But I can gladly say that the class exceeded my expectation. Jeff handed the workshop over to Michelle D’Avella to lead the breathwork portion. When she announced that she was from LA, I was very excited because I love California and I could tell she had that laidback LA vibe. She described the breathwork technique that we would be using for the next 45 minutes. A deep breath, half into the belly and half into the chest, then breathe out- all done through the mouth. She prefaced by saying that we might feel tingling in our hands or in our mouths, as this might be a sign of energy that is trying to move but we might be holding on to. She even made slight sounds with the breath. We started by following her guidance, then we could breathe at our own pace. I started to get a bit light-headed, and my mind was giving me some resistance to keep up with the breathing. I really did not think it would be this transformational, but it was! The breath is our life force energy, so it makes sense that moving it so vigorously and intentionally could be a great healing tool. The technique may seem simple, but it takes a good teacher to hold the space for this healing to occur. And Michelle was able to do that in a very compassionate way. She was also like a personal trainer, giving us the positive encouragement to keep up and keep going with the breathing. There were portions were I felt like I needed to take a break, as the emotions and feelings arising were so strong. But as the group kept going it was easier to jump back in.

I could feel some stuck energy in my knees, so I moved around a little bit, as Michelle said we could if we felt we needed to. I was also initially resisting the music, as the lyrics were triggering different emotions to arise in me. And the tears came out. And she comforted us, “It’s ok to cry. Let it out. Crying is where healing happens.” Usually I would expect peaceful music with no lyrics, like in a massage or reiki session. And lately that is most of the music I listen to, and music without lyrics. I think that in the past few years I have not been letting myself cry as much, or feeling like I shouldn’t cry as it may bring others down. But now I realize that crying is extremely healing and I’m thankful to have had that space today to be vulnerable in a group setting. I realized that the music was perfect, as it really was triggering (in a good way) different emotions for different people. Of course, everyone had their own individual experience. But it was also amazing to hear that many people had similar experiences as we shared at the end. 3 or more people said that they could feel their hands vibrating. And one other woman also said her hand felt stuck in a certain position at one point (as was mine). I did have an insight or realization about the deep love that I have for my father. As my hands were shaking, I thought about my father and his Parkinson’s disease. Lately as I see him cope with this disease in his life, I wonder where it came from and ways that he could potentially heal. I know there are many stories of miraculous healings from God and the Divine. But I also believe that many holistic therapies could aid him greatly. I wonder if it could be linked to repressed emotions. Anyway, I know he has to choose to heal himself and I don’t think he realizes that as a possibility. But I will give him unconditional love and support as much as I can.

In my own healing process, I recently released an “entity” that was on my back. And I am still healing that space, and I’ve noticed major changes and occurrences in the past week since that occurred. Some of these occurrences included drama and being lashed out at, and feeling like I am someone’s enemy because of something I did in the past. I had sex with a man, even though I knew he had a girlfriend in a monogamous relationship. Later on, I brought myself to tell the girlfriend, as it must have needed to come out of my subconscious. Of course they broke up. And now, months later, there is still sadness and anger surfacing and being directed towards me. I don’t blame them for this, as much as it hurts me, as blame is only resistance. And I can now accept this and understand this, as breakups really do hurt. They are hurt. I have apologized and I have learned my lesson. And there is nothing I can do now but have compassion for myself, and own my own feelings and pain.

Screen Shot 2016-06-26 at 3.34.56 PM

So, usually when I think of “Heartbreak” I think of times when I was broken up with, or I broke up with a significant other. But in this case, this involvement with this other couple has also affected me. I can’t stifle myself, but I am now practicing being more aware and cautious of who I choose to sleep with. I even knew from the start that something wasn’t right in that situation. But it’s in the past now. And the healing of heartbreak that occurred today and recently, was healing from many different instances that happened in the past. Most likely not just from that one situation. But it’s a paradigm shift that’s helping me get back in touch with my heart and my true feelings. Michelle knew that the hurting energy was coming from my heart and she placed her hands on my shoulders and head which helped me feel better. And today I truly feel that I love myself unconditionally.

Screen Shot 2016-06-26 at 4.58.33 PM

 

Overall it was a wonderful healing experience and I look forward to doing more Breathwork in the near future!

 

Love & Light

-Victoria