Link of the Day: Edible Growth

After a great weekend of going back to my hometown with my BFF and getting all dolled up for my Aunt’s Black Tie Optional 60th Birthday Celebration, the idea lingering in my head is… 3D Printed Food.

Around 1AM on Friday night, my friend said, did you know that you can print food now? Yes with a 3D printer. At first I was very skeptical, I challenged her notion. I had to see it to believe it. My stubborn friend pulled up this video:

Although Chloe mentions that Edible Growth is still a future food concept, the images in the video provided me with enough evidence to prove my friend’s point. Food can be printed!

I had been thinking about about the fact that the very substances most humans survive off of are all provided to us by the few remaining farmers in the world. I think with the advancement of food technology, we will be able to satisfy our desires to participate in growing our own food.


Healing Myself after a Breakup


I just wanted to mention something about the breakup that I am processing. I know that it was my doing. I told my significant other that I wanted to be single because I knew it would be better for me in my current life situation.

I decided to consult the MsgAngels app about a “Situation or Concern”

When it came to the Hidden Influences card, I drew the angel Sonya:

“I bring you a message from your deceased loved one: ‘I am happy, at peace, and I love you very much. Please don’t worry about me.”

My grandfather Kushnerick has been coming into my thoughts a lot lately, as he was one of my main academic influences as a child. He was the person that taught me how to read and write, I remember it distinctly, using a yellow notepad and pens. I’m sure that other people helped, but he must’ve had a great influence on me since I remember it so well. I’ve been thinking about him and what he would think of me today in the world; would he approve of me? would he be proud of me as I’m about to graduate college?

The Sonya card goes on:

“Your heart has been heavy with grief, and I am here to reassure you. I am a guardian angel to your deceased loved one, and I want you to know that there is no reason for you to worry. Your loved one is very happy and has adjusted to the transition very well. There is no anger or upset directed toward you, only love and understanding. You have done nothing wrong, dear one, so please don’t blame yourself in any way. You did everything that you could, and your loved one has asked me to share this appreciation with you”

At this point I began to realize that the card was answering what I initially asked about  when it comes to my current situation or concern. Maybe my grandfather still factors into the situation somehow, but who knows. Over the past week I’ve been thinking and/or worrying daily about my “ex-lover”. I wondered if I made the right choice, doubted myself, felt alone, worried whether he would be ok or not and hoped that he would be handling the situation positively and healing. Even though the card was talking about a deceased loved one, I also accepted that the advice might be helping me process my breakup situation. Telling me that my ex-lover is not angry at me.

“You and your loved one still share great love between your souls. That love could never die! Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams; as well as through feeling, hearing, smelling or seeing your loved one’s essence. Your loved one is as alive as you are- even more alive in many ways. Relieved of Earthly cares or bodily pains, your loved one is freer and happier than ever. As soon as you complete your life’s purpose and it is your time to make the transition, you will be reunited in each other’s arms. In the meantime, please know that your loved one is with you often, and that the angels surround you continuously.”

Although my ex-lover is not dead, his physical presence has disappeared from my life and I have missed it over the past week. This last paragraph has helped me understand and reassure my feelings about the love that we once shared. It was very strong, and I still have that love stored somewhere deep in my heart. “That love could never die!” I still question that statement because if we broke up, then how is that statement true…. but honestly it is the way that I like to deal with my breakups. A compassionate way, knowing that once I’ve loved someone, I will always love them in a special way even if we aren’t “dating” in the current physical world. So far I can say that I feel like I’ve truly loved two of the people I have dated. For the others I have dated, I still wished them luck and happiness when we parted. The other reason I felt that the card resonated with me was because it mentioned “Although you miss your loved one’s physical presence, you have already connected spiritually in your dreams.” I had a vivid dream that involved my ex-lover last night. I won’t give all of the details, but I had not remembered many dreams that included him in the past. Although the dream wasn’t all peace and love, it also wasn’t a night mare, so that’s a good sign that we’re somewhere in the middle and hopefully we are both healing.

The app was created by Doreen Virtue. I am not religious, (although I was raised as a Christian). I know it’s important not to be extremely gullible or naive and to not believe everything I hear. But I also believe that if something helps me feel better (in a non-intrusive way) then it’s ok for me to put some good faith into it. Even if it’s sort of like a placebo effect.

Here is Doreen’s website:

Link of the Day: Michelle Tea & RADAR Productions

Despite NPR’s negative review of the book “How to Grow Up” by Michelle Tea, I’m actually gaining a lot of pleasure and insight from reading this book. Even if the lessons that she spells out seem to be quite obvious, I still feel the solidarity, like I’m not the only one who’s going to make those mistakes. Also, this book has been my first introduction to Michelle Tea as an author and role model. Yes, she has had a rough past, but that only makes me envy and respect her more.

“I was charmed by her sweetness and confidence. She absolutely did not have that thing that usually drew me to the people I dated, the dark cloud I’d mistaken as deep or sexy for so long.”- Michelle wrote in the chapter Beware of Sex and Other Rules for Love. Coming from an experienced queer lady who has experimented with many different types of relationships, the anecdote has affected my perspective. I’m going through a relationship transition right now, and the story really makes me think about what I want in a relationship (or whether I even want to be in a relationship at this age/ stage in my life). I’ve found myself attracted to that dark cloud of depression over my lover for the past few months, but I realize it may be time to let go of that for a little bit at least. I only hope that the seed of self-healing I’ve planted in the man with the dark cloud is starting to sprout. Also, I notice that he may not be the only one suffering. In following the dark cloud I may have created more suffering for myself than I needed to. I am not putting myself above him by any means, but I’m realizing that the distance may be healthy for me.

Anyway, I did not mean to say that Michelle Tea is old- she is much more young spirited than many people I know. But I do feel that she is very relatable. I know, I know, my Creative Writing professor always used to say “relatable” is such an over-used word, but I can’t think of a better synonym.

I’m just discovering RADAR Productions; Michelle’s non-profit organization. It seems like a great organization, housing things from a publishing imprint to a writing lab/ workshop and a poetry reading series. I’ll be doing some more browsing on the RADAR site in the future, and I hope to meet Michelle Tea one day and have her sign my chest.